October 28, 2012

School. Boys. Confusion

School Side: so my schedule got switched up and so now I am in the intermediate band, and regular Alg 2
1st hr: Symphony band, with my friends from marching band, but not many...
2nd hr: English, with some of my good friends
3rd and 4th hr: Block Science, it's kinda fun... I guess
5th hr: math... it's so awkward! I am one of the only 2 freshman.. it's so annoying!!
6th hr: French, with my "friend" who is getting on my nerves. she is kinda one of those girls I wanted to AVOID throughout high school... whatever
Play Practice: well our Play is 'The Crucible' I got the part of Betty Parris which I find amazing and I'm so grateful for getting that part, but I go hangout with tech most of the time, cause I like them better.. oh but since Betty screams, I scream. Our first show is on Tuesday... I DON'T HAVE MY VOICE D: yeah i'm freaking the heck out!!! so now I'm not allowed to talk till Tuesday... AWKWARD TIMES :3

Boys: well I did get a bf, he is my not-so-mellow mello from marching band, but here is the prob, yeah I like him, he is so sweet to me, but he is a total jerk to my guy friends. so now i gotta dump him, because if you ain't nice to my bro's then we ain't goin out. sorry... -I know I know, that sounded really mean, but I'm really getting tired of him treating them horribly, and he will just lie to my face about the matter. so yeah I get pretty tired of it..

Confusion: well i finally understand why people HATE high school but love it still. It definitely is a bittersweet environment. I'm starting to hate my girls, but my guys are as always, the best! but some classes im failing so i'm feeling down about that. 

yeah.. it's kind of a depressing time for me. I think it's because I wasn't expecting to hate the girls as much as I do.. I know  I know, I'm ranting, and I'm sorry. I just feel annoyed with the world again :(

I promise I'll try to be more optimistic next time!!!

Where Your True Friends Lie

High School.

It is so full of: 1. the people you despise, 2. secretly hate with a burning passion, 3. your best friends, 4. your REAL best friends, 5. then the people that drift in and out of  your life.
we all have at least one of each, if not then MANY..

I know I have a couple of the first two, my usual group on the third, my guy friends as the fourth, and then the few people that tend to annoy me, but I'm hardly around them to notice.

unfortunately, no one should notice the details, or the fact that who you THINK are your friends, guess what. They aren't. If you fell, they would laugh, probably not help you up, unless you begged them to. so lets do some scenarios:

1) Your boyfriend is a total jerk to your ex, but you and your ex are still good friends.
-1 don't care
-2 pretend to care
-3 sit there and say that your ex totally deserves it, and not to dump him
-4 tell you he is an a** and say you need to break up with him because he DOESN'T deserve you
-5 meh *just kinda listen to you*

~okay lets just compare 3 and 4 from now on~

2) you trip, and hurt yourself (with your instrument!)
-3 ohmahgod! are you okay? *doesn't help you up*
-4 hahahahaha-are you okay?-hahahahahahaha *eventually helps you up... when your all done laughing :D*

3) you're really depressed lately about stuff
-3 are you tired?
-4 *awkward shifting* are you okay? You've been acting different lately...

so you see the difference is huge. so next time watch all the signs girls. its really annoying when you have to put up with crap from you're so-called friends. trust me, that has been my life lately.. only it was example 1 and 3, #2 happened to my ex, who is still my awesome friend.


So that's about it for now, I just really needed to vent. but if you guys ever need help with anything, shoot me a question! if anyone even reads these..